Tonight, tonight...I cannot sleep tonight!

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Ugh. I have no idea why I am still awake. On weekdays, I get up at 5am and am generally asleep by 11pm, but on the weekends I stay up 'til 2 or 3 in the morning. It's madness!

So, I don't like talking about work anymore but I feel like I have to say something or it will explode out of me in unhealthy ways later. To be honest, I am not enjoying it. There is very little structure and even less instruction. Everyone tends to guard their knowledge like misers hovering over gold. I went from an area where I was one of the oldest to this unit where I am the second youngest. I find it all...irritating.

I could deal with it, push my way in and study hard, teach myself what I need to know. But, here's the rub. I don't want to. I am so exhausted by the newness of everything, the constant fight for knowledge, learning to read all these old dragons, and just...people in my face all day long (a big part of my job includes an endless parade of meetings). I don't want to sabotage myself, but I can feel myself going down that road. I will have to think of something. Wish me luck.


In movie news, we saw Midnight in Paris, which was amusing and whimsical. The actor who plays Hemingway is just AWESOME - a caricature perhaps, but sincere and spot-on. Made me want to go and buy a million books about the Jazz Age and the Lost Generation (more on that in a mo).

We also went to see Westside Story at the local artsy fartsy theater that was screening it for free. Even though it's not one of my favorite musicals, it's still fantastic. Finger-snapping, pirouetting gang members rule! Also, the theater makes kick-ass Greek pizza. Yum!

Tonight, we went to see Green Lantern. Although the movie was far from perfect, it didn't deserve the vitriolic and hateful reviews that I have been reading. Ryan Reynolds is charming and I love, love, loooove Peter Sarsgaard, who was both icky and sympathetic in his too-small role. I'm glad I went to see it.

Oh, yes...and about the million books...I GOT MY KINDLE!!!! I named it Shakespeare and it has a lovely red cover and is already full of classic lit because it was free and I can read that crap over and over like nobody's business (Jane Austen, Louisa May Alcott, and Shakespeare, I am looking at you!). I have pretty much spent every free minute since Thursday browsing for kindle books, downloading kindle books, and reading on my kindle until I pass out from pure exhaustion. I have the Book Hunger, which I used to have 24/7 until (ironically) I went to college. Then it became sporadic and I went for long periods of time when I couldn't be arsed to finish an entire novel unless it was non-fiction, preferably of the historical variety. But the BH is back, baby!!!

Ohhhkay, bedtime.