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melcreada ([personal profile] melcreada) wrote2003-06-16 04:23 am

Yay!

JP is in Moab, UT. Woo! That's near the border of Colorado. That's like 15 hours from here! He will be spending a couple of days in the desert, checking out the sites. Eek! Must finish unpacking.

I alternate between ecstatic happiness and mild panic attacks. I mean, the last time I lived with someone, it was awesome for the first few years and then it all went to doggy-doo. Of course, that was a long time ago and I like to think I have grown and learned from my mistakes (yeah, right).

It's not that I don't think we aren't perfect for each other. I just don't want to mess up. And I know that you can't really "mess up" and that it takes two to make or break a relationship. But I have been burned in the past and, for the first time, I am truly feeling the ache of that scar.

Whee! Augh! Lather, rinse, repeat.

Quiz to calm myself. I believe I already took this one, but what the Hell. Very accurte says I!


You speak like Dom! I will now label you goofy,
naughty, and pervy.


Which LotR male cast member do you sound like?
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[identity profile] joseishijin.livejournal.com 2003-06-16 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, jINx...

My head tells me there is nothing to worry about. I just don't want my insecurities and neurosis to freak out. I am a VERY emotional person and sometimes I get so used to sublimating it that I forget that everything just builds up and wants out.

But, when I'm with him everything is wonderful and I know deep down that we'll be happy. He'll be here Friday. Eeee! ^_^

*hugs*