melcreada | I got this?

I couldn't sleep last night. My anxiety is starting to piss me off.

But the weird part is, I am not just afraid of losing my job and losing the house and having to start all over again from scratch. I am also afraid of never finding a career that I really and truly want to do. I am just so ambivalent. I was raised to believe that work was not something to be enjoyed. It was something you did and you did it with 100% effort, no matter if it was running a business or digging ditches. I am looking at all these master's degrees and not one of them sounds the least bit helpful. Oh poor me with too many decisions, LOL! I don't know. I just need to pay the fucking bills. Everything else is negotiable.

*le sigh*

In other news, I made some awesome spaghetti marinara tonight, with grilled Italian turkey sausage and fresh sauteed veggies. Yummy! I have leftovers for days.

I spent my work day tied to my desk at home, swamped and irritable. Yes, it was a Monday!

The good news is that I washed all the dishes, am planning a quick run to the grocery store, and then...laundry!!! I can do this because I am off tomorrow. Hooray!

Now, I am going to drive away in my jeep and take a minute just to breathe...