melcreada | Entries tagged with work!crap

I have been having some trouble getting out of bed and going to work (post holiday blues mixed with sporadic crippling insecurity) so I have taken to listening to Jimmy Eat World's The Middle on the way to work to bring my mood up. It actually works most of the time - the tempo is upbeat and the lyrics...well, they are not poetry but they are words I think you need to hear sometimes.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
And looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
So don't buy in.
Live right now and
Just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out
And looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can.
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright,alright.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright.

The meme is on hiatus for the moment, mainly because my weeks have been running together in a
tired, slumpy blur. I hope to pick it up soon, though.

Current Mood: tired

I was a multi-tasking mofo at work today. Seriously, I can't have another day like that or I will go completely bonkers. So tired. It doesn't help that winter allergies have set up their yearly taiko drum symposium in my head. The constant pounding on my right temple and behind my right eye make me want to punch my own face.

Blargh.

Okay, meme!

Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

Lily Martin Spencer, painting in the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City. I just thought it was purty. Sorry about the glare.

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: me & mrs. jones - billy paul

Ugh. So tired. Have worked 27 hours in the past two days with two more to go. Working the week of Christmas blows, not only because we are short-handed and ridiculously busy, but our new hardware refuses to work right so guess who gets to stay and wait for the programmers? I'll give you a hint - it's not my boss. Add to this grocery shopping (violent urge meter: murder), preparing for annual family-filled Christmas party at my parent's house (violent urge meter: maim), and various other undone errands (violent urge meter: mischief/mayhem) and you have one grouchy chica.

I hate to say it, but I am so ready for Christmas to be over!

Okay, that was the crap. Here is the good stuff:

- birthday/anniversary party at my parent's house was good. I got money, a gift card (Old Navy!), and a purse I had picked out from Fossil. JP got me Pride & Prejudice on blu-ray, which rocks ass! All in all, a good day.

- the next day I headed up to Austin to hang with Nay-nay. Her and Danny took me to County Line on the Lake for lots of barbeque and a beautiful view. Later, we went shopping and then to her brother's house where her sister-in-law had made me a cake. Aw! That night, we went to Applebees to watch the Dallas game and break the law (we smuggled a few airline liquor bottles in to make mixed drinks, ghetto-style). Afterwards, we retired to her house, I drank a whole bottle of Rosa Regale, and was mildly sick the next morning. Lovely, lovely weekend.

- JP and I made our reservations to go to San Francisco in February. We are staying at the Hotel Bijou, which is quaint and has a mini-theater that plays a double-feature every night and is apparently right around the corner from the local crack den. Sweet. We got a screaming good deal: two round trip airline tickets and 4 nights at the hotel for $650. Rock on.

Finally, I got off track with my meme, but allow me to er, re-track it

Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad

I don't like seeing animals being made to perform. Especially large ones. It makes me sad, even though I know a lot of them probably have better lives among humans than in the wild. That doesn't make it right. : (

Current Mood: tired

Hello, hello. I am still alive (go me!).

Earlier this week, JP and I went to Houston to see the Star Wars in Concert show and it rocked! Anthony Daniels charmingly introduced different film clips and pieces of music and the orchestra was just wonderful. JP and I somehow got bumped up to a suite at the Holiday Inn Express (who knew they even had suites?!) so that was good times, too. We stopped at NASA on the way back home since we have those year-long passes. Boogie! Great weekend, although it rained the whole drive back.

Do you know NASA has a free app for the iphone that shows pictures and mission updates? It's pretty groovy...

Even though I took Monday off for this trip, I still ended up with overtime this week as my days stretched on FOREVER at work. The testing can suck it! And since they are still trying to finalize software stuff, I am having to divide my time between helping with the testing and attending the most boring, yet numerous meetings in the universe. And doing a crap job at both, I might add. People are starting to comment on my crankiness, but seriously? They'd be cranky too if they were responsible for fixing this shit. They crack jokes when stuff breaks, but they are not the ones stuck at work at 8pm, arguing with programmers and fielding calls from anxious directors. I am so done!

Last night, after the latest installment of "What Broke Today?" JP and I headed out to Austin to visit their famous haunted house, The House of Torment. It had some scary bits and the animatronics were impressive (although few of them were actually moving when we walked by). But is was crazy-crowded (of course) and 95% of the people in line were considerably younger than us. There was a second, smaller haunted house that was included in our tickets and this one was a little better: not as open as the first one (so it was hard to tell what was coming), some disorienting rooms, and one part where we had to push our way through what JP called "a birth canal" in complete darkness. We capped the night off with a visit to the Waffle House, and came back home. Hooray!

Someday I will post my Tahoe and New York pictures and recap my NYC trip. But today is not that day. I am exhausted! Shopping today, handing out candy and movie watching tonight! We were invited to a Halloween party, but I am just too damn tired...

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: this is halloween, this is halloween

Got back from New York on Wednesday night. Have been working nonstop ever since. Back for more tomorrow.

Trip was wonderful. There are pictures. It's nice to be needed at work, but seriously...the testing is not going well, I am no where near caught up, and frankly, not being in charge of this project is making me slightly insane. Not a good side of me, I confess.

Anyway, will post pictures...someday.

Current Mood: full
Current Music: jesus christ - brand new

I am a little buzzed and it rocks!

Also, David Cook is coming to Texas (no where near me, of course...what are you trying to SAY, Dave?). I may have to sit this round out, which makes me LOL considering my out of state ventures. Oh, wells.

Work makes me want to eat my own hand but today, walking through the parking garage, me and my iphone caught this lovely photo...

Made me glad to be alive and shit. In other news, New York trip is imminent. I would be freaking out right about now, but for the vodka. Yes, indeedy.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: romeo & juliet - monte montgomery

Work can suck it. I am so exhausted! Admittedly, all the crap they keep throwing on me does make the week go faster. There is also talk of sending me to Dallas for the day next week, so I can see the new system up close and personal. Yay.

Okay, off to make some cupcakes. More interesting post later? That is a big maybe. Perhaps I will talk about Overpriced Pancake Theater or my weekend with Nay-nay!

Current Mood: exhausted

Need vacay. STAT.

If I have to look at one more technical manual at work, I will go batshit insane. I'm sorry, but a thousand pages in four days is TOO MUCH. Seriously, my hair is falling out cause I am so stressed. At least, I think that's why it's falling out. When I go bald, I want a beautiful, long red wig, BTW. ^____^

Feeling better today. It helped that my brother,sensing I was on the edge of a mental breakdown/murder spree, called me today. We hashed out some stuff and spent a little while being silly and pointless, and that was nice. Nice in that he gets that I am upset and why I am upset and while he doesn't try to broker the peace, he is just there, which is really the most important thing of all.

I love making sweet potato fries in the oven, but for reals - I cannot make them crispy to save my life.

Current Mood: tired

I feel very much in the world today, which is a little unusual. So, you know...that's nice. I think.

Long, bad week over. Hooray! There is nothing like someone telling you that you are not doing your job properly even though they have been singing a different song all the years prior. Way to randomly and suddenly change your mind! Eff the eff off.

I feel like I have a lot to do, but I actually don't. I just have to enjoy my weekend. *nods*

Here are the answers to a meme posted by the lovely

white_death :

( All the answers are within... )

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: heroes - david cook

Nay-nay's grandma bought me a ticket to see Wicked in Austin so I could go with all of them for Nay-nay's birthday at the end of August. ♥

I wish DC would come to a club venue near me (I am so demanding) - I have seen him at two festivals and to me, it's a totally different vibe when you are squashed in a dark, smoky club.

Work is ridiculous since my co-worker is gone for the next two weeks and I have all his work and mine. Plus we are starting spec meetings for the new system that is going in before the end of the year. That. Will. Be. Ugly. You read it here first.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: in the heights original cast album

*le sigh*

After a positively decadent week of travel, David Cook concert, fireworks, shopping, drinking, and spending waaaay too much time writing and being on the internets, it's time to pack it all up and go back to work. Dammit. I actually spoke with a co-worker at the baby shower who informed me that we are incredibly short-handed (in the past two weeks, we have lost four people for various reasons). Hoo. Ray. Also, I can't work from home for the next few weeks because I will be training. Mmmm, nothing tries my patience like teaching.

But all in all, I am glad to be going back to work. Apparently when I have too much time on my hands, all I do is spend money and get rather depressed. This leads to drinking and listening to sad music and getting that horrible, desperate feeling in my chest that I always associate with Holly Golightly's 'mean reds.'

So, yeah. Also, my dad is going in for a procedure tomorrow where they want to biopsy his kidney. I am trying not to think about it too much because I can't do anything about it. I am trying to just be calm and positive (like THAT has ever gotten me anywhere before). My dad, to make matters better/worse/I don't know has made it clear in no uncertain terms that he does not want visitors. A couple of years ago when he landed in the hospital, he spent most of his time chasing us out of his room. So, joy.

Okay, going to shake it off, finish my laundry, and call the Kid.

Current Mood: worried
Current Music: forever fall - mwk

We had a potluck today (as "essential" personnel, we worked on the business holiday) and I baked cupcakes! They were a big hit. Hooray!!

Also, I would just like to thank the great state of California (who is issuing post-dated checks that are breaking our system). Because of them, I have to cut my vacation short and do a little work next week.

Current Mood: irritated

Exhausted.

I wish someone would bring me an ice cold martini or bloody Mary (heavy on the olives) while I lie here in bed.

I dislike working Saturdays, not gonna lie.

Tomorrow, Wicked! I am trying so hard not to have high expectations - but I've heard the soundtrack and know the story and can't help but give a little anticipatory *squee*

And now, a nap.

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: story of your life - to have heroes

Yuck. I have to go to scary business breakfast in the morning hosted by the president of our division. I am supposed to ask questions. You know the kind I am talking about. The kind that don't offend anyone but are still thought-provoking and make me (and by extension, my department) look good and smart. I want to ask about the outsourcing, but I have been told that under no circumstances am I to mention it. Excuse me while I barf. Corporate politics can kiss my ass.

Must go think up some questions...

Adam Lambert is gay! In other news, water is wet!

*rolling my eyes so hard, they have gone into the back of my head*

Don't mind me, kiddies. Momma is in a baaaad mood.

Still to do before my trip next week: get itinerary/driving directions together, cut and color hair, do MOAR LAUNDRY, buy strapless bra (gaaaaaah), clean my disgusting room.

In good news, I am going to see Wicked this weekend. Huzzah!

ETA: okay, I am not cranky about the Adam Lambert stuff anymore because I read a couple of snippets of the interview and it is FABULOUS, i.e.:

"I loved it this season when girls went crazy for me. As far as I'm concerned, it's all hot. Just because I'm not sticking it in there doesn't mean that I don't find it beautiful," Lambert (graphically) tells Rolling Stone.

Lambert even goes on to share his feelings toward sharing a living space with 'Idol' champion Kris Allen. He says that when the show moved them in together, "I was like, 'Oh, s--t, they put me with the cute guy.' Distracting! He's the one guy that I found attractive in the whole group on the show: nice, nonchalant, pretty and totally my type – except that he has a wife. I mean, he's open-minded and liberal, but he's definitely 100 percent straight."

LOLOLOLOL!!!

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: little sparrow - david cook

Only one and a half more days of work, hooray! Because I have been sick, my boss has been letting me work at home. I'm kinda torn between loving it and hating it. On the one hand, I spend a lot of time managing work flow and the system, which I never really enjoy and had gotten away from over the past couple of years. But on the other hand, I am at home! Working in my PJs! No makeup, no running around like a chicken with its head cut off, and no fires to put out.

Did anyone else watch the pilot of Glee last week? I thought it was kind of a downer, a little too dark for my tastes. And I don't care what anyone says - beautiful girls, no matter how obnoxious, would never be treated the way the main character is treated. Believe me, I went to school with some lovely, vile creatures and they were all popular. That being said, I am in love with the glee versions of Rehab and Don't Stop Believin''.

David Cook is coming to Amarillo and I am very conflicted about this. He's in Texas, but he couldn't possibly be any further from me and still be in the state! Ten hours to be exact. *sigh* What to do, what to do.

Also, animegame has put a cel up on ebay that I have been ogling for years and years on their website. But I think I am going to have to pass - I have at least two mini and one proper vacays this year and need to conserve the fundage. Oh well. *snuffle*

I am eating Halls Defense Vitamin C supplements and they are delicious in the way that things that are good for you are delicious. Mmmm, lozenges...

Current Mood: still sick
Current Music: street light! people! living just to find emotion!

I am so fargin tired. This week has been the longest ever and it's only Wednesday! I worked from home on Monday, which is a good thing because I didn't finish until 8:30pm. The programmer heard me making dinner while we were on the phone and asked me what the heck I was doing, LOL!

We saw Star Trek on Sunday night and I thought it was pretty damn great! Karl Urban alone was totally worth the trip. I thought he made an excellent Bones! Everyone else did nicely (although no one other than Leonard Nimoy will be Spock for me and spoilers? having him in the movie, I think, put Zachary Quinto at a disadvantage although Z did not do a bad job). The storyline was good and the action and special effects were awesome! All in all, I can't wait to see it again...

I bought this BCBG peasant blouse recently and it is the best thing in the entire universe! I usually refrain from sleeveless tops, but I could not resist the siren song of this one. ♥ ♥ ♥

Oh, and many, MANY thanks to the awesome

cherry_snows for tossing me a dreamwidth invite. You ROCK! Seems like old times, ne?! ^_~ I just have to decide on whether or not to change my username (I know, I have only been pondering this for like 3 years, LOL!).

Finally, JP and I are talking about putting in some of those faux wood (laminate) floating floors downstairs. I am way excited, although I am more a "grunt" while JP is the engineer and executer of this project. ^____^

Current Mood: exhausted

I am freakin' exhausted by the work week. Tuesday was a bad, bad day. But life goes on and all that jazz. Today was considerably better since I didn't have to go in and give a tour, fix a problem or test something, which is what I have been doing recently on my days off to the delight of my bank account and to the detriment of my peace of mind.

In cool news, the crab apple tree in my backyard is blooming like crazy with little white flowers! Also, I bought one of these AeroGardens at Target for 75% off. I also bought the herb, green bean, and salad green seeds to go with it. Hooray for teeny tiny indoor gardens! I think these are so cool; I have wanted one since I first saw it. So sci-fi and classroom projecty. I know, it's weird but I am so excited!

In real news, somewhere deep inside my brain, I have been hyperventilating constantly at the thought of picking a career/master's program/making any kind of decision really. It's always there: when I'm happy or emo. When I'm wasting time in front of the computer or when I'm just trying to keep my head above water. I've studied up on lots of different job options and plenty of different degrees. I find myself disappointed in a lot of the "online, working person's masters degrees." They seem kind of fake. Maybe that is a misconception I have, but...yeah.

So I still don't know. But I am approaching a decision (yeesh). I just really need to make the right choice because I already fucked this up once before and now I have a house and bills and JP and the kitties to think of. I can't fuck up again or it might hurt us all. Mmmm, so deliciously melodramatic and emo...

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: incarcerate - david cook (axium)

I am sickie-poo. My throat hurts, I have a fever, my bones ache, and I am pretty positive I was hallucinating in front of the TV earlier, when I had a long conversation with JP in spite of the fact that he was outside working on the yard.

Tomorrow is tours and software upgrades and short-handed staff woes. Another day in paradise...

American Idol is sorta getting better for me. I really liked Anoop tonight and, although no one else seems to, I love Megan. I am a fan of quirky, throwback singers. Her lack of a powerful voice doesn't bother me; Lil has killer pipes and she bores me to tears. But I'm pretty sure Megan won't stay much longer, if the vitriol against her on the interwebs is any indication. Huh. The one year I like a girl...

Where is DC when you need him? ^_______^

Speaking of good music, is anyone else besides me obsessed with the 80's flavored 'Untouched' by the Veronicas? I LOVE that song. It's such a pick me up!

Okay, sleepy times. Night all...

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: untouched - the veronicas

Weird - I noticed awhile back that the David Cook tour took the one Texas date off the itinerary, so either it was a mistake or a cancellation. Bummer. I was looking at possible other shows, but the nearest one is still a 9+ hour drive (effin Texas, man...it takes FOREVER to cross this damn state). Also, I really shouldn't be blowing the little extra money I have on this. I am still holding out hope that he will make an appearance in Texas.

Work is going to be ridic this week with multiple software upgrades to test (feast or famine, I tell ya).

I had a fabulous weekend, but I am still depressed. So you know what that means! Meme time!

( Fun. 100 Things. )

Current Mood: clinical
Current Music: show me what i'm looking for - carolina liar

Obama's speech! ♥

I hate his speechwriter for being twenty-seven!!! [/inane jealousy]

They told us at work that we could watch the inauguration online and then cried foul when we slowed the network to a crawl. Seriously, they got on the BIG intercom, like the voice of God, and told us to get the fudge off the internets. FAIL. So, I had to listen to it on TPR, which would have been fine but I kept getting interrupted by people asking inane questions about work. *sheesh* So many in Texas, not big fans of the new President...

I finally got to watch and listen to his address in its entirety tonight and it was beautiful. Very moving and a kick in the pants at the same time. I love that he didn't sugarcoat it. I love what he said about his father not being served at a local restaurant because my parents tell similar stories. The whole thing just filled me with hope and that, my dear friends, is a miracle in and of itself.

Current Mood: full of po-tay-toes
Current Music: noche de ronda - eydie & los panchos

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Entries tagged with work!crap

The Middle

We got a thing going on...

My birthday was good. Yay.

Dear LJ, it's me, Melly...

Meh.

You and me, babe, how 'bout it?

I am le tired...

I can has a sleepy?

You teach me to rise up

Nobody likes a smart-ass, Melissa

Making armies from a box of matches

Baking is hard work!

Work, work, work

Shit, my laundry!

Antibiotics FTW!!!

Why am I itchy?

I'm losing faith in gravity

I feel like dookie...

Hockey is a very violent sport and therefore cathartic, y/n?

Faintly irritated on this auspicious day...